Coffee and Escitalopram!

For years I have struggled with motivation and concentration and I still do. It would take me three weeks to wash up, three months to hoover. It took me five years to finish my first book. I would struggle to get into town to do shopping and struggle back. I would end up spending the day playing cards on my computer and checking emails, mostly achieving nothing. I might do ten minutes work a day if that. I have suffered from depression for many years, and I put my lack of motivation down to not feeling like I had a future, or that I wanted one. But recently I have tried a cocktail of strong coffee and a low dose of the anti-depressant Escitalopram. I have tried anti-depressants before, and believe me I don't have much faith in them. Most of them are effective for about three months and then their efficacy drops off a cliff. So far I have taken it (when I remember) for about six weeks. I have also increased my caffeine intake. This combination seems to be working, but not always. I am a little more active and I am writing again, after a period of being totally blocked. I just didn't want to write. I felt silly, like I wasn't good enough. I plan to take Escitalopram for three months and see what happens. Not that I am recommending drinking loads of coffee and taking anti-depressants as a solution to chronic laziness, driven by desperately bad depression, but hay, what works, works. The trouble is my blood sugar levels have shot up, as a result of taking this drug. So as soon as I solve one problem I have effectively created another, potentially as serious as the one I was trying to solve. Prolong my life, by feeling happier, but shortened it via diabetes. I can't win.

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